Monday, August 31, 2009

Neglecting, So Neglecting

Long long week and not much writing happening here. I've been debating weather or not I'll keep this blog going as it's primarily just for me (I don't have an audience) We shall see what happens.

Also neglecting simply because I've been sick. I'm talking laid up in bed, unable to sleep, doubled over in pain sick for a long time now. The meds are almost finished and I'm still in constant pain every day. Tiredness has taken over because sleepless nights have been common. Back to the doctor (thankfully not the hospital again) later in the week for more tests, and potentially another prescription.

Enough on that. Here is a quick review of the last couple weeks.

Shayne and Sean (Two Many People) playing at the Gap for their 40th anniversary. This was the night of the many tornadoes, and the storm was crazy. Alas, I rolled up my jeans to my knees, readied my flip-flops for puddles and hoofed it up the street for a 15 minute walk to check these guys out. Soaked and freezing, and they did a great job!!

Even got free cake!! Shayne is now a happy man!

When Shayne and I were on the Dufferin bus, on our way home from the Gap show, we met a guy in a strange predicament. This smiling, friendly stranger with swarthy glasses, a moustache and beige plaid pants was experiencing a split along his inseam. Fighting with a safety pin, he jokingly asked if anyone there, in the back of the bus, happened to have a pair of pliers with them. Now my wonderful, handsome boyfriend also happens to be very resourceful, so yes, of course Shayne had a pair of pliers in his bag. Well, the smiling, moustached stranger was most obliged...and we were laughing when the very next night, walking down the street with Jerry and Mary, we passed these movie posters. And wouldn't you's the same dude from the bus!

What else, Michelle turned 32! She was having a small BBQ lunch with Jay, her mom and her two sisters. Little did she know that Jill secretly invited Erin and I over to be a birthday surprise for her. This was the first time we spent an afternoon in Michelle and Jay's gorgeous new backyard (property of their very own first home) So beautiful.

A photograph of a photograph: one from the way-back archives! Love this shot because I don't have many photos of when I had my hair styled that way. Trademark bangs.

Simon getting himself into a little kitty bundle. He stayed like this for a good hour.

Wednesday, August 26, 2009

Yesterday Basically Sucked

I've been suffering from some unidentified medical problem for the past week, and feeling overall pretty sick. I've been holding it together though, and suffering through some antibiotics. Even though I've been feeling this way, I've still managed to have some great times though! I just do my best.

But yesterday I had a bad day.
In the morning I barely made it to work, it was the worst subway ride of my life. I got all hot and hyperventilating and nauseous and pains started shooting up my left side till I thought I was having a heart attack. I got into work, sat down at my desk and just couldn't do it...something was majorly wrong.

I went down to the basement studio to chill in the greenroom for a while, but just kept feeling worse. So, I took a taxi down to the St. Michael's emergency room and it was insane pain. I could barely breathe and I've never felt so terrible. The taxi driver did not like having me as a client, I could tell he wanted to get rid of me. He probably thought I was gonna spew in his car or something (which I didn't) I was way disoriented when I got out of the cab and stumbled over to an EMS worker and asked him how to get into the emergency...the door was right in front of my face. I nearly fell over when I got to the desk inside, sweating everywhere and all painful and teary eyed. They gave me a form to fill out and I couldn't even do that. A couple guys were like "are you gonna be sick?" I answered no, i was just in pain. I couldn't sit still and told them "I can't do this paperwork right now" and dropped the clipboard on the desk. That's how painful it was..ick...I couldn't even write down my name. Then I just waited for a long time, slowly feeling better, until the nurse could see me...took pee samples, then the doc saw me and debated doing ultrasounds...but decided just to give me new (stronger) pills. Kidney infection. The hour I was in the exam room, all I could think of was "an hour is too long, how the heck did jerry do it for 3 weeks?"

After 3 hours in hospital, I felt fine on the streetcar home and spent the rest of the day chilling out. And dammit I even made it to my dinner reservations...that were already paid for.... I hadn't eaten much in the last few days so I enjoyed fully.

But on a positive note, I had a great weekend with great people! Hanging with Shayne, Jerry and Mary at the Painted Lady (among other places) hanging with the folks in Brampton, then celebrating Michelle's birthday in her beautiful backyard.

Tuesday, August 25, 2009

Stunning Photography

I stumbled upon this truly amazing photography by Jaqueline Roberts. If I ever have kids, I can only hope I'd be half as talented in photographing them.

Wednesday, August 19, 2009


This morning I went into my studio to get another book to read. I discovered that I have no more books to read. Looking through all the books I've read before (not many, as I don't keep everything I read) I started thinking about re-reading a book or two from my past. As I reached out for Cat's Eye, I was shuttled back in time: in highschool, living at home with my family, reading the story of Elaine and Cordelia over the Christmas holidays. Sitting on the love seat in the living room with a cup of hot tea, mom on the white chair with a magazine. I couldn't keep my mind on the book because my eyes were entranced by the reflections in the golden ornament on the Christmas tree, moving slightly in the warm air from the furnace vent.

Then I reached for White Oleander, and suddenly I was 21 working in my first real job. Sitting in the cold, dark chyron compose room reading between productions. Pages that made springtime come alive, pages that had me dreaming of sunshine for many months, so I too could feel that melting relief, the first warm days, the first birdsongs of March. Pages that held a mirror up to my face that I treat despair like an important guest, pull up it's favourite chair and make it's favourite drink. I still do that.

These things caused me to see that sometimes memories can't be tampered with. I passed up both books in fear that these feelings and memories would be dimmed upon a second reading. I did not want to replace the golden christmas ornament, the tea, the springtime despair, with an aging, squealing subway commute to work.

Cherish your memories, and hold them close. Mine seem to be in a glass box, on display forever in the strange abyss of my mind.

Tuesday, August 18, 2009

Plenty More (thieved) Camping Pictures!!

I love thieving pictures for my own nostalgic memories. Here are some more of our lovely campsite.

Shayne and his look a like beer label man.

Jerry uh..I don't want to know what you are doing here!

Hmmm, now where the hell did I put my beer...

"You shall not pass!...ok, go ahead and pass"

My decorated pot brownies.

Cutting them was a bitch though.

My walking style is so fluid and elegant!

Again with the walking hey!

...and the dancing. Seriously, I think I'm the most graceful gal who's ever been camping.

Shayne's position for all of Saturday night: a chair, a beer and the fire was all he needed (also being completely embarrassed my my antics too I'm sure)

Bad ass...

Party at the discotheque!

"Yep, still go my beer"

Sleeping on the dog. Passed out for a while out of sickness before heading to the beach.

Long hard weekend for Scar!